那天,正为着新学年的开始而开始收拾书籍。假期还过得真快,转眼间又要开学了呢。真想快点回校上课,不过却不大想见到那些我讨厌的人,真的好矛盾。在收拾的时候还发现到一样东西,还真是意外,是我以前的东西。那是几张腊黄的照片,一些旧信,一大箱的承诺和一房间的回忆。我拿起照片细细的回味着,那是2000年的毕业照,几张熟悉的面孔顿时跃了出来,是那麽的鲜明,那麽的令人怀念,仿佛耳际还隐约听见大家的谈笑声。几十封的旧信,都铺上厚厚的一道尘;想着自己当年的天真浪漫,都禁不住嘴角一扬。当时的无忧无虑是无法比拟的,只要大家坐着一块儿,说个冷笑话也会笑得人仰马翻。我慢慢的打开信封,细细的品味着当年我们立下的承诺,你在信中对我说你的考试很难,需要多加温习;又说天气变冷,还问我的家到底有没有下雨。那是你第一年写给我的信。第二年的信则令我印象深刻,你问我年终聚餐到底去不去?而我却给了你一个空白的回答:“很忙。”连续好几年都是同样的借口,结果你也对我疏远了;陆陆续续又读了好多封,读到最后一封时,我脑子开始有点空白,那是我最不愿看下去的一封信。信中,你对我说你永远都不会再跟我来信,因为你已经有了对象,叫我不要再打扰你。我的记忆一下子都回来了,都回来了,这永远的挥别,一别就是九年。你是否还会认得我吗?如果有一天在街上碰面,我还会认得你吗?毕业那一天你泪眼盈眶的叫我要保持联络,而且还紧紧的握着我的手,说你会很想念我,一定要记得你。那一天我到底还答应了你什麽?我都忘了,都模糊了......
照片里,我拥着你比了个胜利的手势。那一年,我们都笑得好灿烂。
那夜,我捧着那几封信,和几张贺卡坐在靠窗的地方;看着外面的街灯和下了一晚的倾盆大雨。和你的距离,感觉靠得很近,却又那麽的遥远。冷风把我吹得直颤抖,看着散落一地的旧物件,我开始茫然了。却意外的发现到我手上的小册子里,竟然有着这麽一行字:“亲爱的,如果失去一个朋友是一种幸福的话,那麽,我便是这世上最幸福的人。” 我当时是以什麽心情去写的呢?我不懂。我只知道这行字,字字刺骨,句句冷冰。我应该是在那时候开始变的吧?开始变得不近人情,变得疯疯癫癫的。缘份是一种唯妙的东西,它想把你绑住的话,打风也打不掉的。如果它不来找你,你也不得强求。那夜,虽然回忆起许多陈年往事,但是那一晚我却睡得很熟,很香,很甜......梦里,我们应该还是有相会的可能,对吧?
2 comments:
life is full of memories...sometimes i do have this nostalgic feeling when i look through all my old letters n photos...the laughter when i was in primary, the bitter-sweetness when i was in secondary...
but the phrase u wrote seem so cold...what happened..?but i guess everyone has their own past that sometimes is a major turning point in life, n from ur last 2 post u speak of wolf...sometimes, to survive, u need only be true to urself n others, kindness is a much better way to live, sometimes when u want something y not jz ask, it's much better than getting it through lies.but everyone have their own choice of living...find one that suits who u really are...not one that changes who u are...good luck...n congratulation for the exam...
wow, it seems that i still have a supporter who supported my blog so much.Thanks for your advice, i really appreciate it. Hoped that you are not influenced by my dark ideology. By the way,thanks for your support ^^
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