along the path of destiny

This is the first time that i write a post in English, i think it is fair enough to do so since most of my readers are English educated. About a month ago, when i still struggling for my final exam, i was stressed; i was worried and i was desperate. We all required to write about 4 pages of answer sheets in order to passed the exam, i was desperate. i still remember the first day when i went to the examination centre , it was a nightmare. All people were looking at me coldly, as if i was a freak out there; darn it! there is always difficulties in life, i am not surprise by it. i am giving out my 101% to the exam.

i found that im not so suitable for the present school, i could not fit myself properly. The problem that i faced is that people always tends to judge a person through their apperance. i was not that kind of person that like to mix around, im not good in hiding myself, maybe this is the attitude that required to have in this modern era. i admit that im not a modern person, im more to clssical type, or maybe i should have said that im more to eastern style (of course im more to eastern, im proud to be an easterner!). My overview in last year: a terrible year . Ay, i do not wished to remembrance anymore, the lecturers are nice, but the students are totally sucks; i don really have a life in last year. i hated those bitches and bastards, they are all borned actor/actress, im thinking that if im the producer of hollywood, those people will become the best candidates for me. Now i will figure out how those demons had actually treated me (forget about the angel part, there have no angel). firstly, for the first few months when i joined this "hell school", we have little problems with each other, just some sorts of crossed opinion. Later on, this particular demon had actually posted my photo and particular online and started to criticise me.

Oh Lord Buddha! spare me! why do i destined to went through this threachery? i was helpless, i was still fresh at that time, and i suffered a lot; this demon is wicked, this is the first "present" that the school have given to me, and i actually appreciated that! and later on a series of penalised and condemnination events begins. i will never forget those ugly faces. i did believed in karma, this is life! an inevitable reality that we need to face. However, it is depends on our own perspective. sometimes, we need to learn from experience, because it makes us strong, and become more wiser than ever.

将军令

昨天青蛙在下午时段突然打电话来我家，还真是奇迹。说是有事想来找我，就敷衍着答应了。不久后，我开始后悔了；我应该是要找工的呀，干嘛还答应人家？没想到这一答应倒是成了我的恶梦。我的恶梦一直延伸到晚上。我惨！

本来就只答应去放乌龟而已，哪知道突然友人又说等下有去戏院看电影。我和青蛙相视了一会，也答应了。反正只是看电影嘛。到了那儿后才惊觉还有三位友人的朋友（简称陌生人）也一道去了。我倒是无所谓，反正也是人嘛。不过怪就怪在都说英文的，我好似在外国一样。这不是在马来西亚吗？干嘛我老觉得我是在美国？我想起吴克群的《将军令》开始吃吃的笑。不过十分钟，我开始呐闷了，我不经心的东张西望，玩味的看着一个接一个陌生的背影。我都说方言，坚决不肯说英文。不过他们好似听不懂我的语言（也是他们的语言），这下可好了咱们可都成了秀才和兵，谁也听不进谁的了。他们应该会以为我很低级吧，老是在说方言。不是我不懂得英文，我倒是觉得没那个必要去特地将自己西方化；英文书早就读到想吐了。就算怎麽弄都好，永远也是黑眼睛，黑头发，黄皮肤，变不了的。

不过我看得出青蛙很卖力的在展示他自己的英文，几里古鲁的说了一大堆废话，弄得我毛骨悚然。我跟他们实在是无话可说，因为他们都是在炫耀，我承认我没有那种本事；都是一堆塑胶人，没甚麽文化的。这种强烈的对比一直延续到晚上。我对着这群塑胶人，差点闷倒在他们面前。自认是没那种把持能力，还是一切随缘吧。