Thursday, June 11, 2009

along the path of destiny

This is the first time that i write a post in English, i think it is fair enough to do so since most of my readers are English educated. About a month ago, when i still struggling for my final exam, i was stressed; i was worried and i was desperate. We all required to write about 4 pages of answer sheets in order to passed the exam, i was desperate. i still remember the first day when i went to the examination centre , it was a nightmare. All people were looking at me coldly, as if i was a freak out there; darn it! there is always difficulties in life, i am not surprise by it. i am giving out my 101% to the exam.

i found that im not so suitable for the present school, i could not fit myself properly. The problem that i faced is that people always tends to judge a person through their apperance. i was not that kind of person that like to mix around, im not good in hiding myself, maybe this is the attitude that required to have in this modern era. i admit that im not a modern person, im more to clssical type, or maybe i should have said that im more to eastern style (of course im more to eastern, im proud to be an easterner!). My overview in last year: a terrible year . Ay, i do not wished to remembrance anymore, the lecturers are nice, but the students are totally sucks; i don really have a life in last year. i hated those bitches and bastards, they are all borned actor/actress, im thinking that if im the producer of hollywood, those people will become the best candidates for me. Now i will figure out how those demons had actually treated me (forget about the angel part, there have no angel). firstly, for the first few months when i joined this "hell school", we have little problems with each other, just some sorts of crossed opinion. Later on, this particular demon had actually posted my photo and particular online and started to criticise me.

Oh Lord Buddha! spare me! why do i destined to went through this threachery? i was helpless, i was still fresh at that time, and i suffered a lot; this demon is wicked, this is the first "present" that the school have given to me, and i actually appreciated that! and later on a series of penalised and condemnination events begins. i will never forget those ugly faces. i did believed in karma, this is life! an inevitable reality that we need to face. However, it is depends on our own perspective. sometimes, we need to learn from experience, because it makes us strong, and become more wiser than ever.

1 comment:

a friend said...

dear friend,
sometimes u take thing a little too seriously.if u take life too seriouly, very often u'll miss out on the fun part.everyone judge everyone by appearance, even u n me, think carefully do they have a reason to treat u as they did?or did u do or said something, u think is right n it is unacceptable to others?devils do not come from hell, it is our heart that give birth to devils, it is what we see n how we see things that make the difference.life is sometimes too hard to handle, might as well let everything flow n see how things goes.do what u must n try ur best, n for the rest, dun worry be happy, when u culculate too much u'll ended up being in the damn culculation urself.